Living. It's crazy the different things that can control us as each year and day brings something new. I think that things like depression, anxiety, and being a crazy person are all very real, but also that they affect everyone is different phases of life. This past year has been very ~~~~ (that is supposed to be waves), but a lot has been learned from it also! I was thinking yesterday of how much of a gift it is to feel hopeful and know that suffering produces endurance, and perseverance, and hope! (Romans 5:3-5). If God is making me better at all these things than I should be excited about foregoing a little discomfort in exchange for incomparable joy!
I have been really trying to take life day by day in order that I can appreciate all the great gifts of each day without rushing through them and always awaiting the success of the future. I think expectance is awesome, but I learned to plan and expect how my life was going to be instead of letting God be in control. Only through repeated failure have I learned to let go of expectations and remain hopeful. So this morning when I woke up I was so pleasantly surprised! The sun was shining! I had a great morning run! And then while I was getting ready for class, I just felt good. I felt like myself. So I started manipulating and trying to think of how this would make me run faster and such and then I had to take a step back and re evaluate. The gift of just feeling hopeful and like myself was enough for today, and such a great joy to know that it is even possible to feel normal at all!
Anyhowz, sorry for the 'Dear Diary', I hope it will leave you feeling full of some hope!
Exciting things from the week:
I discovered the goodness of the Fava Bean. After reading about the health and vitality benefits I decided to give them a try, and my o my, what a good call!
I also started planning a road trip for this summer to Steamboat, CO. Hike, bike, breathe, live!!!
J'aime Colorado :)